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May. 25th, 2007

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A large part of the reason I don't keep up to date with this journal/use it at all really is because it's more or less pointless. There's one person on my friends list who knows me well enough to understand the motivations behind the things I write without passing improper judgment, and I talk to him about everything important otherwise.

I'm not always the best person with words, I will always be the first person to admit this. As such, I don't always properly express my ideas or feelings... and sometimes at the time of writing an entry I don't see the significance behind explaining my complete emotions on the subject. I've noticed after receiving some aggressive comments from 3-4 people that, basically, I come off as being a pompous asshole. You know what? Maybe I am.

Maybe I don't talk to people because I think I'm too good for them, and I'm the first to admit that I'm a little bit self-aggrandizing... various things throughout time have led me to these conclusions, but more or less this self aggrandizement is me thinking my way of life is better than everyone else. I don't think I'm an especially influential person.


Most of the flak I get is when I talk about things somehow or another relating to when I was in high school, and without understanding the full story behind things these are EASILY misinterpreted, and for that I apologize - I don't apologize for my actions or my thoughts on the matter, I just apologize for not explaining them properly.




Halfway through freshmen year, I basically decided that I was too good for everyone I went to high school with... I honestly have no idea how or when exactly I came to this conclusion, I just know I had a lot of fucked up things going on in my life then and that I was beginning to get really into the rave scene and the punk scene (along with various not so fantastic aspects of these scenes). I began to meet and hang out with a lot of people who were much older than I was, while withdrawing myself from my classmates... maybe because I thought I was too mature for them, maybe because I just stopped caring, who knows? I don't. The point is, throughout 3 years of high school I spoke with maybe 3-4 people outside of classes - occasionally I went to parties with kids from school, but I still stuck with the same people or to myself at them. People didn't talk to me, I didn't talk to them. More or less, I viewed myself as hanging on to obscurity in the high school food chain...

And you know, maybe I wasn't exactly as obscure as I thought I was. I'm a very private person, to me it's really weird when I am approached and spoke to by someone I sort of ever knew, even if it was in a proper situation. I don't want to noticed.

I freaked out when some guy approached me in my organic chemistry class and asked me if I was in his genetics class as well, even though I sit right across from him in lab and there was no reason that he shouldn't of recognized me. That's just how I am. And you know what? That guy happened to be cool as hell and I'm going to have him in several other of my classes in the future.

Some people are happy being ignored and are shocked when they aren't.
That doesn't mean that I don't ultimately appreciate the gesture.

Dec. 26th, 2006

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I have a new journal.

I actually intend on using this one.
It's going to be picture heavy.

Anyone is welcome to add it.
here


MERRY CHRISTMAS

Aug. 10th, 2006

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I love the internet, because it attracts perhaps some of the dumbest people to ever exist.


PLEASE STOP USING THIS AS AN ARGUEMENT AGAINST EVOLUTION BEING TAUGHT IN SCHOOLS
"Just because evolution is a widely accepted theory it shouldn't be taught in schools because it's a theory."

HELLO! All science is theory, should we not teach science in schools at all?

I'm sure they believe in the THEORY of gravity, or do they think Jesus is keeping them on the ground?

The only reason I could see for NOT wanting to learn Evolution is because you're afraid it might challenge your beliefs and/or make you "realize" that what you believe maybe isn't the full truth?




If you hate Evolution and want to disprove it - learn EVERYTHING you can about it so you can learn how to collect scientifically sound evidence to shoot holes through it!

Aug. 7th, 2006

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101 Things to do in 1001 Days.

I made a list of 101 Things that I want to accomplish in the next 1001 days.
I started the time tomorrow (August 8th) and it will offically end on MAY 5, 2009.

1. LEARN TO FIRE GUNS
2. DRINK NOTHING BUT WATER FOR ONE WEEK
3. NOTHING BELOW A B IN CLASSES
4. LEARN MORE ABOUT BUDDHISM
5. READ 50+ BOOKS I HAVE NEVER READ BEFORE
6. GO ON A ROAD TRIP WITH TRAVIS
7. WORK ON A COMMUNITY SERVICE PROJECT
8. SAVE MONEY FOR A NIKON D50
9. THROW A ZOMBIE PARTY
10. MAKE AT LEAST 10 FRIENDS A MIX CD THAT I FEEL MATCHES THEM
11. GET ONE MANICURE
12. SPEND NEW YEARS WITH A SIGNIFICANT OTHER
13. BEGIN TO EAT HEALTHY
14. SUPRISE MY FRIENDS WITH SMALL PRESENTS
15. REPLACE THE CARPET IN MY ROOM
16. GET MORE TATTOOS
17. LEARN TO DRIVE
18. KEEP UP WITH MY DAYPLANNER
19. GET IN TOUCH WITH AN OLD FRIEND
20. CLEAN MY ROOM AND PACK FOR SCHOOL
21. JOIN THREE SCHOOL ORGANIZATIONS
22. GO SNORKLING
23. MAKE FRIENDS WITH A PROFESSOR
24. ORGANIZE MY MUSIC COLLECTION
25. WRITE A LETTER TO THE EDITOR
26. DO THE BEST I CAN TO GET KINKY FRIEDMAN ELECTED!
27. GO CAMPING/SLEEP UNDER THE STARS
28. THROW A SMALL PARTY
29. TRAVEL TO DENVER, COLORADO
30. MAKE FRIENDS WITH MY LAB PARTNERS
31. START A STUDY GROUP FOR ONE CLASS
32. START A WORKOUT ROUTINE AT THE REC
33. GO TO THE DOCTOR ABOUT MY ECZEMA
34. MEDITATE AT LEAST ONCE DAILY
35. COMPILE A BOOK OF INSPIRING LYRICS/QUOTES
36. CUT MY HAIR VERY SHORT
37. HAVE A CHILDHOOD DAY WITH A FRIEND
38. BUY AN I <3 KINKY SHIRT
39. BUY AT LEAST 1 CD WITH EVERY PAYCHECK
40. WRITE MORE LETTERS TO POLITICIANS ON THE ISSUES
41. BUY A NINTENDO DS
42. UPDATE A JOURNAL (ONLINE OR OTHERWISE) DAILY
43. START A CONVERSATION WITH 20 RANDOM PEOPLE
44. PAINT MY DORM ROOM WITH KATIE
45. VOLUNTEER FOR A WOMEN'S ORGANIZATION
46. LEARN SOME GUITAR
47. WRITE A LETTER TO NICK BLINKO
48. WRITE A LIVING WILL
49. BEGIN TO EAT MORE VEGETARIAN/VEGAN MEALS
50. STOP BITING MY NAILS
51. KEEP A RECORD OF MY DREAMS
52. STOP SWEARING ALL TOGETHER
53. GET UP WHEN MY ALARM GOES OFF
54. MAKE AT LEAST FOUR MEALS FOR FRIENDS
55. BAKE COOKIES FOR A FRIEND
56. DEVELOP MY TAG AND BEGIN DOING IT
57. GRADUATE FROM SCHOOL AT LEAST A SEMESTER EARLY
58. TAKE THE MCAT
59. MAKE HOMEBREW
60. START A COLLECTION OF ANYTHING
61. KEEP MY ROOM CLEAN
62. GET AN APARTMENT WITH FRIENDS
63. CONTRIBUTE TO A WIKIPEDIA ARTICLE
64. READ AT LEAST TWO NEW WIKIPEDIA ARTICLES A DAY
65. COMPLETE ALL ASSIGNMENTS AT LEAST TWO DAYS BEFORE THEY'RE DUE FOR A MONTH
66. WHITEN MY TEETH
67. GO TO BURN (BONFIRE) WITH MY CLOSET FRIENDS
68. FINISH MY BLACKBELT SUDOKU BOOK
69. GET ON BIRTH CONTROL
70. MAKE A FRESHMEN'S FIRST SEMESTER EASIER
71. ALTER MY WARDROBE ENOUGH SO I ONLY WEAR A BLACK TOP ONCE A WEEK
72. HANG OUT WITH THE BAND AFTER A SHOW (A BAND I'M NOT ALREADY FRIENDS WITH)
73. WRITE AN ARTICLE FOR MUSIC ZINE
74. CREATE A DELICIOUS MIXED DRINK AND NAME IT AFTER MYSELF
75. PARTICIPATE IN A RALLY
76. GET A SHIBA INU
77. DRESS UP FOR HALLOWEEN
78. BUT MYSELF THREE BONDAGE TOYS, INCLUDING A WHIP
79. CROSS STITCH A PICTURE
80. GET A BRAZILIAN WAX
81. DRAW AT LEAST ONE SKETCH PER MONTH
82. REFINISH A PIECE OF FURNITURE
83. WATCH THE SUNRISE ONCE A MONTH
84. SEND A CARE PACKAGE TO A FRIEND
85. COMPLETE A PUZZLE ON MY OWN
86. PLAY FRISBEE WITH THE HIPPIES
87. FLOSS EVERY DAY
88. LEARN A NEW WORD EVERY WEEK
89. PLAY IN THE SNOW
90. BUILD A DESKTOP
91. PLAY MINI-GOLF AT PETER PAN
92. GO TUBING IN A RIVER
93. BUY A VIDEO PROJECTOR
94. GET MY MAKEUP DONE AT MAC
95. ENJOY A THUNDERSTORM
96. WEAR SUNSCREEN
97. USE MY SAVINGS ACCOUNT FOR SAVINGS
98. MEET A PERSON I TALK TO ONLINE
99. EAT AT THAT SWANK FRENCH RESTAURANT IN AUSTIN AFTER I TURN 21
100. WORK ON MY MAKEUP SKILLS
101. CREATE ANOTHER LIST OF 101 THINGS FOR THE NEXT 1001 DAYS

Jul. 3rd, 2006

Guess who's back?

Back again.

I haven't posted on here in so long that I really don't know what to say.


I'm technically a junior in college now.
I work in a genetics lab.
I'm trying to get an internship with the CDC.
I've gone through about 5 or 6 boyfriends since I last posted.

One was hiding a gigantic secret from me.
One left me for world of warcraft.
One tried to rape me.
One is bipolar.
One left me because he was homeless and a fat girl said she would give him a place to stay if he fucked her.

Haha, it makes it seem like it was a bad year, but it was really rad. I'll try updating more frequently/doing double posts between here and my myspace journal (www.myspace.com/strapon)

Apr. 8th, 2005

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See the tall one who looks like he's pooping?


I'd hit it.
I go up to the bottom of writing on that shirt, actually I think I'm giving myself too much credit... I'm like mid logo.





By the way, that's DDC and this is more an excuse to support my friends' band.
The dead boy (Justin) and Reed are incredibly awesome people.


and DDC is an AWESOME band. music and other info here.

Sep. 24th, 2004

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VOID.

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Things are working out beautifully.
Plotting my evil scheme for tomorrow....

and the other evil scheme for after school....
and the other evil scheme for after that....

Sep. 13th, 2004

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A certain someone is back in Austin and owes me a piggy back ride...

another certain someone owes me a popsicle.


If you don't know for a fact you're not the latter mentioned person, you should consider bringing me a popsicle.

Enter what number(s) you would apply to me in the comments section. Then copy and paste this into your own LJ for hours of fun and amusement.

1= I don't know you.
2= I like you.
3= I love you in that internet, not real way.
4= I really do love you!!
5= You are funny.
6= You are boring.
7= I don't really care for your personality.
8= I want to fuck your brains out.
9= You are damn sexy!
10= You are ugly.
11= I want to get to know you better.
12= I hope you die.
13= Marry me, please?

Aug. 27th, 2004

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My friend did that, he's pretty awesome..

I've been busy, working hard... and trying to figure out if there's a lethal dose of ginseng... so far I've come up with this
the more ginseng you take.. the more relaxed and focused you are...
no negative side effects as of yet.


I've neglected this journal as of late.Collapse )

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